Feeling FAT!!!

Lately Ive been feeling FAT.... Its very disheartening to see my ugly and nasty paunch every morning when i get ready to work... In fact its very disgusting.... God! how i wish one day i wake up with a tight washboard abs.... Wishful thinking!! But at least right now, I can flash to Mrs Z something round and bouncy belly... AND also compare who has the bigger stomach, esp after lunch...... hehehe....

I really really really really really tried my best to at least jog 3x a week... See 2 weeks ago, i did jog and use free weights... Then after the exercise, every muscle in the body ache, terribly.... Guess must did something (didnt do proper cool down?) wrong, no???
Naturally, after that I need to "rest"... So the resting period has become 2 weeks of non activity... How like that???? HOW??????
SIGH!!!!

I wish im more motivated to do something... Like today, after work i was raring to go and run but the bleeding train was delayed... and due to extra standing on the train, when i left, i got such a severe backache and was in pain.... and guess what, after i reach home im too lazy to do anything... instead here i am, infront of the PC, blogging about how i feel fat... Its so so so PATHETIC!!!


I hope this weekend i will get a certain inspiration or motivation to actually jog.... I gotta set a goal.... And one thats achievable.... My resolution was to lose at least 10kg by end of the year and time is running out!!


Oh and to Roy, hope u are feeling so much better and have a safe trip back to San Diego...
Im very happy to meet up with u last nite... U r one of my friends that i cherish a lot...
Take care and i really hope that you will email regularly....