Of Being Stupid....

Ok so the holidays are over.... Had a good time in Bangkok with the beloved...
Went shopping ard for house decorations and bought wood carving but sad thing, all 3 of the wood carvings are of different designs... Sayang was hoping that it would be a pair of the same design but alas, when we got home, all 3 are different... So now instead of displaying in the living room it will be in the masterbedroom...
We also bought 3 paintings and those will be displayed in the living room instead of the bedroom... I liked the color and texture of the painting and its a steal at RM$280....
Both of us were contented and left the weekend market to go elsewhere shopping....

Now why did i indicate the caption 'of being stupid'??? Was fcuking upset with sayang last nite... i just asked something while talking and he went ballistic and starting lashing at me!!!
What the fcuk??? And he goes on and on everytime i said/did something not to his liking and instantly, the word STUPID comes out of his fcuking loud mouth....
A good friend of mine said that i dont get any RESPECT from sayang... Why is there a need to get so angry and the need to shout/screaming and being vulgar with me... It shatters my confidence in the relationship and its gets me to think, if im the right one???
Last nite made me to wake up from my La-La land of everything nice and rosy... Why cant i get angry every now and then??? Sayang asked me why theres a need for me to merajuk? Hello???
What am i?? A Robot??? Expect me to be happy and laughing everytime ive been told to being STUPID!!! Fcuk!!!
As much as I love my sayang so much, there is a limit to my patience and frankly, its wearing thin... I thought that i got over it this morning when we were sms-ing each other just now but im definitely still stinging from last nite remarks....

So maybe I am STUPID... Have a mind like a 5 yr old but if u think, sayang, u cant take it anymore then lets split!!! I dont see the point of going on anymore when at the end of the day u make me feel like a child and not as yr equal....

FCUK!!!

Going to Bangkok!!!!

Cannot wait for Friday!!! Going KL and then the following day will go to BKK...
woohoo!!! its been slightly more than a year since last i went...
Going to surprise with sayang with the RING i bought the other day... I do hope it fits and that sayang will like it...
so folks i will update more after the trip!!!

ciao amigos!!!

Working Saturday...

Cant believe it but finally i managed to wake up early and go to work...
So happy that i managed to file most of the applications forms... Abt time too!!!
Its been quite a while since i actually came back on Saturday to work.. Very proud of myself!!!

Oh, guess what?? I volunteered to work on Sunday as well. Need the replacement off so that I can accompany me mum to the hospital for the following check up (05.12.05)...
That means i can bring forward my unused leave for next year (n0t much only 1 1/2 days)...
And next yr, I have 21 days of leave... WOOHOO!!!!

Ok better get going cos i need to hang dry my work shirts and go for a hair cut..

Ciao!!!

Yaaawwwwwnnnnn!!!!!!

Its Friday morning and I dont feel like working at all today!!!
However with my sales being very slow this month, I do not have the luxury to email chat with anyone.... Must try harder....
But first..

Kopi... oh kopi... i need u...

Xmas Plans...

Having panic attack!!! Made plans to go up KL during the long Xmas weekend...
Thought everything is going to be smooth but turned out that its very difficult to get hold of coach tix from KL to Spore...

Hope my sayang can get the tix otherwise, the plan needs to be cancelled!!!

Sob sob sob!!!

Operation successful....

New work week has begun and im getting a tad nervous and a stress out thinking of my sales that’s not moving very2 well...
Worse bit is that I don’t even have the mood to call customers for f/up!!! I mean if u are interested in something and make the call to the hotline, naturally, you will callback to ask more questions or just faxed back the necc applications for me to do, right???
*sigh*…

Anyway, my mum had undergone a total mastectomy last Friday…Operation was around 4hours and when she came out of the operation, look really tired / weak and most of all, really old… I wanted to cry but force myself not to, as I don’t want her to start crying too!!
Doctor mentioned that everything is fine and she will need to follow up 3 weeks later….
Was advised by the doctor that she needs to do exercises to strengthen her right arm…. Fyi, mastectomy was done on the right side…. And being right handed make things harder for her to do....
I pray that she will recover soon and that no complications will arise after this!!!
Apart from the operation,
im so HAPPY that my sayang came over from KL to visit… The significant other didn’t sleep till boarded the bus till boarded the bus at 7.30am and all this is due to the birthday party held for one of the cousin in KL… I cant believe that after partying, most of them went out for supper!!! Worse can actually stayed and chit chat till the wee hours of the morning!!! Arent they going to be dead tired??? I mean I used to party all nite and will crawl back to bed at ard 8-9am but now, I think the most I can stay up is till 3am.. And if out partying, I need at least 2 full days to recover!!!
*sigh*…. This is what happens when u party WAAYYY to much earlier in life… U get burnt out!! Hehehe…
Lastly, I have to get off from my fat ass and start following up with my customers!!!
All the best to me…

Gone to the hospital....

Leaving the office in an hours time...
Heading to the hospital to do the admission thingy for my mum's operation... And the most likely the operation will be done on Friday morning...
I hope my mum is not very nervous and will be strong to pull through the operation....

Just realised that this yr I had to go to the hospital twice... Sometime in July my sister and niece was warded for lung infection.. Now both are in pink of health, tho my niece will fall sick rather easily... Must stop her from drinking too many cold fizzy drinks!!

Will update soon...

Pray for my mum speedy recovery and health!!!

Couldnt ask for more....

To the beloved:

Lying here with you • Listening to the rain • Smiling just to see the smile upon your face • These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive • These are the moments • I'll remember all my life • I found all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • Looking in your eyes • Seeing all I need • Everything you are is everything to me • These are the moments • I know heaven must exist • These are the moments I know all I need is this • I have all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • I could not ask for more than this time together • I could not ask for more than this time with you • Every prayer has been answered • Every dream I have's come true • And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be • Here with you here with me • These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive • These are the moments I'll remember all my life • I've got all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • Chorus • I could not ask for more than the love you give me 'Coz it's all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • I could not ask for more

*sigh*....

Still in holiday mood?!

The long weekend has ended and now back to the daily grind…
I must say that is been a good weekend spent.. Went out visiting my uncle and aunty and my most precious grandmother too…
Everyone was happy seeing everyone but u know what, deep down inside I missed so much my beloved!!! All the laughter and banter cant make me forget abt my beloved..
Will talk abt the feelings I have later…

Now lets see, on the eve of Hari Raya itself, I went to work, left at 1pm, and then head back home to sleep… After breaking my fast, went out with Ms Y to Geylang to look for stuffs.. I need badly a pair of new capal* and maybe buy those little envelopes to put in money for giving out zakat* to my cousins or anyone still in school…
Me and Ms Y were joined by her cousin, Ms A, and off we drive to Geylang, looking for things to add for Hari Raya…
And when we reached Geylang,OMYGOD!! it was so crowded!!! Traffic was a killer and it took us abt 1 hour to find a parking lot!! But it was great fun even tho thousands of people were walking ard, just like us, looking and searching for things to buy… Be it some hari raya cakes or some new baju kurungs* as well…
It was crazy trying to move ard on the eve of Hari Raya… Crazy!!!
First it was really hot and stuffy with sweaty bodies rubbing against you.. Theres no way to escape the from being groped, tugged at, being pushed or shoved!! Such a crowd it was!!! But the atmosphere was amazing… Everyone was in high spirits, anticipating the festive joy with loved ones...
Anyway I did manage to get my capal and it cost me like $15… Cheap!! Walked and walked ard and bought 2 pieces of baju kurungs, one for my mum and one for my sister.. Sadly the size I got for my sister was too small.. Felt very bad that she didn’t have one suit from me cos I really wanted to buy her one.. So I will surprise her next week with a new baju for her… hehehe..

Now I want to write abt my sayang*….

Oh how much Ive been missing my sayang… Last week was a difficult week for me cos sayang flew back to hometown to celebrate Hari Raya with family and friends… I know for a fact that, if you have not been home for a very long time, you will be bz going to houses and catch up with everyone u have not seen… So naturally, I felt very neglected… Try to keep myself busy but when I have a few moments for myself, I cant help but to miss my sayang very badly…
Now I have this Micheal Bolton song stuck in my head…
*Tell me how am I sppsed to live without u*…

Anyhoo, had a little misunderstanding with my sayang and I thought its going to be over.. Its all becos of a stupid sms that I sent… The beloved thought I was sending horny text messages to someone else… sigh… I mean Im f**king in love!!! And I realised that I cant bear to lose my sayang…
Someone was telling my that im so desperate for the beloved.. And I asked myself why is that so??? And the only thing I say is that im so f**king in love!!! Is that a good answer or what?!
U know, if given the chance, I will leave everything that I have here and live with the beloved!! Whether the relationship works or not, that I don’t care, I just want to be with him…
PERIOD!!!!

That’s the week have been for me… What abt yours???


*capal - sort of like a slipper but made mostly of leather
*zakat - giving money
*baju kurung - traditional malay dress
*sayang - this refer to the person u are in love with